Winter Has Made Its Understanding

“Are you alright!?” Fern called out to me. My body took a second to realize the burning sensation was from the snow beginning to freeze my limbs. With my knees bent forward, it made it difficult to twist enough to unclip my skis from the boots to get out of the snow bank. With a…

Come What May

My past haunts me, like a waking dream. I pace from wall to wall, with a single thought. Will I ever be content in one place? Must I always be moving, running, driving away from this feeling.   The car is away, the air is ice in my lungs when I open the door, so…

Winter Wonderland of Yellowstone

The Yellowstone river rushed across the landscape with the mountains protecting the landscape. A waterfall cascaded underneath a sheet of ice as the snow shifted with the wind. I clicked out of my skis to notice the splendor of the area. I smiled up at Fern with genuine excitement. In the Summer, Yellowstone is a…

What Being a Woman Means

Being a woman means wearing bright white tights to church as a child, but running out in the field with your dress catching against the grass as you giggle your way to the edge of the world. Being a woman means keeping your head down on the dark streets, because you have been taught to…

Why I am Afraid to Write

I stared at the blank page in front of me. The words swirled in my head, yet could not translate to my fingers impatiently tapping at the keys. The page seemed to stare back like a fogged mirror. I knew what I wanted to write, yet I could not see the words clear enough to…

The Definition of Fear

The trees swirled in the edges of my vision as my speed picked up going down the hill. My breath grew shallow as my body moved against the weight of gravity and the incline of the snow covered hill. My fear overtook my reason, and my legs came out from under me as my body…

How Your Daily Pattern Effects Your Relationships

I heard the door swing open as the cold air swept in flurries of snow. I swiveled my chair around and peeked around the corner of the hallway to see Fern with bags of groceries and a tired grin on his face. I pitter pattered towards him, and waited until he placed the bags on…

What You Don’t Know About International Love

I scrolled through the immigration website for New Zealand, suddenly realizing the only thing that would separate Fern and I, was money and a piece of paper. The process to have your partner with you across borders is a grueling journey of paperwork, doctor’s notes, police records, and an application longer than a college graduate…

The Whirlwind of 2016

I walked with intention down the tarmac with my eyes and heart ready to see Fern again. I weaved through the crowd around baggage claim and looked up to see him expectantly looking for me. As our eyes locked, I could feel the relief flood through both of our beings. All the more realizing that…

When the Unexpected Happens

Life has those sudden shakes of reality that pulls you straight out of your bubble. To remind you how fragile life is, how much people mean to you, and what the spirit of living really should be about. One such moment was brought upon by the tears that seeped through revealing my frustration and my…

We Must Not Fear, We Must Take Action

In the late hours of the night, I tossed and turned in fear. Filled with anxiety and sadness for this nation. Knowing that fear pushes people to do strange things, beyond what they thought they were capable of. In a time of turmoil, we seek peace. In a time of uncertainty, it is time to…

The Pattern of Recovery

I focused on the pattern of my movements as we slowly walked along the trail. Suddenly the trees looked strange as my head felt dizzy. So I paused to breath in deeply and wait for the fog in my body to pass. I suddenly looked up to seeĀ a young stag standing still upon the hill….