When My Medication Expired

I rolled the bottle in my hand, thinking about the time I was first prescribed the medication. My body was breaking apart at the time, and it seemed I was handed a new medication every time I went into a doctor’s office. I was constantly stressed out, eating very little, and was watching myself waste…

The Safe Haven of Montana

The rain gently was cascading from the sky in a magnificent sound. The sun somehow was still streaming through the clouds, reflecting a thoughtful brilliance. The season is changing, and with it comes rain. As if the earth is cleansing itself for a new beginning. Spring is here, and with it comes many changes, challenges, and deeper…

The Courage to Live Without Limits

Fear often stifles us from ever reaching outside our limits. Fear constricts courage, movement, and opportunity. Completely removing fear from a moment seems impossible, yet, the mind is more powerful than we often give credit for. When we shift where fear resides, we open up opportunity. As I stood at the top of the ski…

A Year Ago I Had Surgery

I woke up this morning with a strange feeling on my heart. As I turned to look at the calendar, I realized that today is March 3rd. A year ago I spent the morning in the hospital, under bright lights and the careful hands of a surgeon. She carefully removed a breast tumor that caused much…

Being a Domestic Goddess

I beamed proudly as Fern walked through the door from a long day of work. All laundry was done, the bed was made, the dishes were washed, dinner was cooking on the stove, and I had banana bread baking in the oven. Something I never thought I would take pride in, but being a domestic…

Winter Has Made Its Understanding

“Are you alright!?” Fern called out to me. My body took a second to realize the burning sensation was from the snow beginning to freeze my limbs. With my knees bent forward, it made it difficult to twist enough to unclip my skis from the boots to get out of the snow bank. With a…

Winter Wonderland of Yellowstone

The Yellowstone river rushed across the landscape with the mountains protecting the landscape. A waterfall cascaded underneath a sheet of ice as the snow shifted with the wind. I clicked out of my skis to notice the splendor of the area. I smiled up at Fern with genuine excitement. In the Summer, Yellowstone is a…

The Definition of Fear

The trees swirled in the edges of my vision as my speed picked up going down the hill. My breath grew shallow as my body moved against the weight of gravity and the incline of the snow covered hill. My fear overtook my reason, and my legs came out from under me as my body…

The Whirlwind of 2016

I walked with intention down the tarmac with my eyes and heart ready to see Fern again. I weaved through the crowd around baggage claim and looked up to see him expectantly looking for me. As our eyes locked, I could feel the relief flood through both of our beings. All the more realizing that…

When the Unexpected Happens

Life has those sudden shakes of reality that pulls you straight out of your bubble. To remind you how fragile life is, how much people mean to you, and what the spirit of living really should be about. One such moment was brought upon by the tears that seeped through revealing my frustration and my…

The Pattern of Recovery

I focused on the pattern of my movements as we slowly walked along the trail. Suddenly the trees looked strange as my head felt dizzy. So I paused to breath in deeply and wait for the fog in my body to pass. I suddenly looked up to see a young stag standing still upon the hill….

Beginnings in Montana

I let the mountains guide my gaze as I pressed my feet against the ground. As my movement moved from a walk to a run, I let the scenery move at a quicker pace. The suburban neighborhood felt familiar, yet new. Every house a new site to my eyes as I reached the end of…